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Saturday, March 25, 2006

Im Goin so under..NO one is out there whu i can depend, trust and hold on to be there for me..parents? leave them..they have always been there for me..Frenz? Whu are they..name urself..Im so depressed by ma frenz reactions towards me..wats so hard juz to give a tot abt me? too busy to forget ur own best fren.?! did i? no i didnt..ppl think im not being fair to em', treatin em' ill and not respecting em..let me ask u sthn..did i realli? For all those years ive been there by ur side..is tis wat i get in return? so whu i m to hold on and trust now? tell me!! im all alone..tat's for sure.. Till now , the words are *uNSPoken*

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Friday, March 24, 2006

Okie..so i guess i got a lil' worked up juz now..hey, everybody have their bad timez..me too..anywayz i didnt even update u guyz abt ma b'dae trip to orc wit ma crazy bunch..so here it goes....
12.30 nn: Met up wit da rest at heerans..lionel and gina were there too..gina has juz arrived frm korea..she showed us so many cool pics taken frm there man..she was skiing!!arghh freakin jealous..hahaz
2pm sthn : Ate our lunch at N.y.d.c..da stup manager has yet to call me and navya up for orientation man..freakin ass..anywayz where was i..oh yea, we were crackin so much of jokes..ate roast grilled peppers pasta..(Bloody nice liao)and treated cal and navya like i promised em'.:)
3pm to 6 pm sthn : IT was a Blastin tym ur'll!We were playin catchin frm wisma atria all da way to far east plaza..freakin funny..hahahz we were havin so much of fun man..Our kiddo selves..so awesome!! We got so tired by da time evenin hit..den we headed to wisma atria again..navya bought her mum a white engraved ring for her b'dae..which is tmr i guess.yea.v.nice..den we took da train baq hm..took somemore awesome and funny pics..had a great time wit ma bunch man..while i arrived home..family surprised me wit ma fav Blackforest Cake..Yum Yum..Actualli i expected da surprise la..so it wasnt realli a surprise in de' end..hahaz but it was okay! Gosh i was sooo tired after tat man..i got lotx of wishes and calls frm ma dear ones..not frm silas..im still pissed wit him cox he hasnt called yet..nvmz i'll forget but not forgive yet.hmm.. Okie a great piece of news!! Ma cuzin bro frm m'sia is cumin over later..more like in 15 mins or so la.Yippee! i can have fun wit him the whole dae tmr and sun man..i miss him like sooo much..ahh..anywayz i cant wait to update him wit da latest stories of ma life , frenz , boys and etc..*wink*wink* hahaz..k la i gtgz now..waiting eargerly for ma cuzin'z arrival..*Adioz*

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Im freakin pissed wit every1 , ma mum , ma frenz , evry 1 and even maself!!! Y do ppl have to storm me up by throwin words on me unneccessarily?!! im tryin ma best to calm down but ppl juz dun let me..im freakin pissed..im fuming now..i cant take it!i HAVE TEMPER LIKE EVERY BITCHEZ AND BASTARDS IN TIS WORLD.!! Fuck all of em'.i juz wana be alone..DUN listen to me , dun tok to me , dun irritate me , dun annoy me and dun fuckin make me swear u assholes out there..tat inclues u too , mum! u tink u r so perfect?! arghhh well i have always been a maid to u rite..listenin to all ur hissy fits here and there..do tis and tat..well fuck u!!!im thru wit every1 whu tries to control ma life and abusin me like im a piece of shit..i have feelins like evry 1 else!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

**Itz ma freakin b'dae 2dae ur'll!!!** hahah yeaaay!im so super duper happy 2dae man.im 18 finally!! arghhh lets party..okie so yest on da dot of 12 mid calvin ( ma bestest buddy in da world ) was da 1st to call and wish me man..i was soooo bloody happy man..haha calvin congratulations!! u won the treat 2dae..haha okie so navya ( ma bestest gurlfren in da world ) was da 2nd to wish me after tat..both called on da dot of 12 mm la..i tink so..ya ya..hahaz den navya was disappointed tat calvin won the treat instead of her..so i decided to treat both of them 2dae..hahah we r goin 2 be the united gang later..hahaz awesome!! den 2dae mornin , i received wishes frm zee , jaya , vitz and lotx more..hesun is yet to wish me yet man..hope he didnt forget ma b'dae..hmmm..anywayz i cant wait later!! me and ma crazy bunch of 8 are gona chachat at orc later..arghhh tis is da awesome b'dae im eva gona have..love all ma besties out there and ma sweethearts and of cox not forgettin ma lovely family and ma bella..P.S she's still slpin..and yet to give me a b'dae lick..hahahz alritez den i gotta get ready for ma b'dae bash later ..so da b'dae gal is signin off now..*Adioz Ma Sweetz* Muackxxxxx Lotx of Luv And HUgz!!!

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Helooo peepz..okie so it was pretty fun yest wit xavier and calvin..haha as usual we teased each other in da train and stuff..xavier was so nice man..i jux clicked wit her like tat..ma nonsense was started..hahahz we reached the camford buz sch ard 4 sthn..some teacher in charge of the ICT department was tokin to us abt the sch's teaching skills compared to polys,the quality of their certs and the advantages abt it..we learned lotx of useful stuffz..i dun mind enrollin there if i dun get a place in poly man..its super convenient and feel like at home..onli 1 prob..too many old ppl in business course class and too little handsome guyz.haizz But i caught a glimpse of a indian guy while we were passing by the Tourism and Travel course class..haha pretty cute.*wink* but toks alott la..nvm..hahaz oki so da buz class was pretty boring yest..they were already in module 3 or 4 sei..wth..its abt letter writing anyway..exactly wat
Mr.Goh taught us in sec sch..but a little different la..they were teaching how to write a overseas business letter after da basic fundamentals..quite interesting..calvin was payin attention all da while..i and xavier were crackin ard as we cldnt tahan da boredom brought on us by the lecturer and the surroundings..haha..we left earlier during the break than expected..phew! peace at last..den we chilled ard the cd shops..calvin and xavier were lookin ard for some chinese cds..after tat we headed home..we were sharing ghost stories in da train..pretty freaky man..but it was ok as there were lots of ppl ard us la.well yea tat's all abt ma camford trip yest..Tmr is ma B'dae!!! Arghhh i cant wait.lets see whu is da 1st to wish me on the stroke of midnite 2dae..hehe..tmr probably would be crashin in town wit ma crazy bunch..cant wait! alritez den *Adioz*

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Monday, March 20, 2006

Halooo peeps..arghh.im so hungry..but no appetite to eat.wat nonsense..phew.anywayz later meetin calvin and xavier at 4pm to go to da camford buz sch 2dae..hope its fun anyway..yest met up wit the crazy bunch at bp plaza..we juz hangin ard, crappin ard , and eatin like pigs at da pasar malam..after tat we headed home..so overall it was a boring day yest la..2 more daez for ma lovely b'dae!!arghh i cant wait..okie i shld shut da hell up rite now..hahaz alritez den..Im Off..*Adioz*

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